I am a straight 29-year-old guy and I've been into ball busting - having my balls kicked and stomped - since I was 14
Published: May 3, 2012
I am a straight 29-year-old guy and I've been into ball busting - having my balls kicked and stomped - since I was 14. The fucked-up thing is, I only enjoy getting my balls busted by other guys. I've been hit in the balls by girls, and it doesn't do anything for me. I thought I might be bisexual, since I want guys to kick me in the balls, but I don't get turned on by the idea of sucking cock or getting fucked by a guy. Only ball busting with a guy turns me on.
I've tried getting busted by girls, watching videos of girls kicking men in the balls, etc., but I never even get hard from it. Sometimes I can see a good-looking guy on the street and I'll get hard just thinking about his feet kicking my balls. In fact, while sitting here writing this question to you, I'm hard because you're a good-looking guy and I'd love to have you kick my balls.
In my current relationship, I've snuck out and met with guys I've found online to have my balls busted. It feels like I'm leading a double life, but I don't know what to do. I've thought of trying a relationship with a guy, but I don't know how that would work since I'm really not into having any kind of sex with a guy. Just ball busting. I've tried to subdue my urges to get my balls busted, but I can't. I seem to need to get it every couple of months, otherwise I get stir-crazy. I'm confused and really just don't know what to do about it. I was hoping that you might have some advice or insight to explain why my brain is so messed up about all this and what I can do.
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At the risk of my inbox filling with angry emails - a risk I run on a weekly basis - I'm gonna quote the late psychologist and sexologist John Money. He was wrong about a lot of things, from gender being socially constructed to “affectional pedophilia” being harmless, but Money was on to something when he wrote about paraphilias, aka kinks.
“A wide range of sexuoerotic diversity has its counterpart in the diversity of languages historically manifested in the human species,” Money wrote in his book Lovemaps: Clinical Concepts of Sexual/Erotic Health and Pathology, Paraphilia and Gender Transposition in Childhood, Adolescence and Maturity. “[Sexual] diversity may be an inevitable evolutionary trade-off - the price paid for the freeing of the primate brain to develop its uniquely human genesis of syntactical speech and creative intelligence.”
So why does having your balls busted by other dudes turn you on when you're not even remotely interested in other dudes romantically or sexually? No idea. We simply don't know why a person has this, that or the other kink, and almost everyone has at least one sexual interest that is seen as kinky by those who don't share it. But it probably has something to do with your big, complex brain and the way it makes big, abstract and sometimes seemingly random connections - the kind of connections that lead to syntactical speech, creative intelligence and crazy-ass kinks.
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